August 18, 2016
It is unreasonable and unfair to assume that just because a person has an addiction to alcohol and history of depression, that they must have taken her own life. The tone of the detective’s report was apparent from when he walked into the room she lived, and also interviewed Brayan about Amanda and her past. A profile was painted of a person that suffered with mental health issues and addiction, by what he observed walking in the room she called home, and by a man that terrorized and traumatized her daily—‘so she had to have done this’ is what I honestly feel he assumed. Nothing in his report suggest otherwise. A few statements from just the first two paragraphs in his report are:
- “The room was dirty and cluttered. I saw no signs of a struggle”
- “The room was littered with alcohol containers and cigarette residue”
- “There were several open alcohol containers in the floors, chairs, and table and several plastic bags of empty beer containers”
I do not live in denial about Amanda’s struggles. They were real. She had used alcohol since she was in her teens. She self-medicated and numbed anxiety, unresolved grief, and depression with alcohol over the years. Some days after the death of all our family members, it was hard, actually a lot of days it was damn hard for both of us. She talked me through times of not wanting to live, and we shared addictive tendencies. This woman fought for everything she had. There were no other attempted suicides; only one other event reported by her boyfriend as an attempt, which is also surrounded by many questions on this side of her life. This girl worked hard from January 2015 saving money to get away from Brayan and the abuse. She was caught in the vicious cycle of domestic violence.
Brayan was interviewed by the detective later after the incident. Again many references to Amanda’s problems:
- “He said that Amanda has an alcohol problem and she drinks all the time”
- “Amanda had been depressed and had been drinking”
- He went through all the deaths of our family members
- “Espana said on top of that Amanda had lost her husband and children because of her alcohol and pill abuse about 3 years ago.”
- Brayan specifically told the detective that she did not take pills or drugs, only alcohol; the detective added that to his report on his own.
- “He said that Amanda drinks she gets mad and they argue”
- “He said that she tried to overdose on pills about 4-5 months ago and he made her thrown up and called her sister Kim Mullens to come and take her to the hospital. He said that Amanda’s family did not like him.”
- Again, this is all questionable, as he was with her during that time frame and would not take her to the hospital. She was scared she was going to die when she called me that night. I told her to make herself throw up and go to the hospital. I begged Brayan to get her to the hospital. I was 8 hours away in Mississippi and felt helpless. When I told him I was going to call an ambulance and police, he said he was taking her, but never did. Her intentions, I feel based on talking with her afterwards, was not a suicide attempt. In an interview with one of her friend’s Maranda, she told of an incident where Brayan and some other Hispanic males were drinking together and she passed out. She felt like she was drugged when she regained consciousness; her vaginal area and legs were bruised and there was a needle mark in her arm. She told her that she thought Brayan had drugged her.
Statements about our meeting in his report were fabricated as well.
- “Mullins said that Amanda called her about 1530 hours today wanting her to come and get her”
- I never spoke to Amanda that day, only through text message that morning around 10 am when she was looking for Amber’s phone number. Amanda never expressed to me or Justin that she was in grave danger and needed help, she never asked me to come get her. She hated to be a burden to people but she did reach out to her close friend, and did have a way out and a plan.
- “Mullins said that she told Amanda that she could not help her and believes that she attempted suicide out of desperation”.
- LIE!! Desperation over what, being scared for her life? I may have used the word desperation during our initial meeting at the hospital that night, but it was a cry of guilt on my part that she didn’t call me for help if she was that depressed and hopeless. That night at the hospital, I had no idea what had happened in the previous 24 hours. This conversation that he refers to in his report that I told her I WOULD NOT HELP HER never took place. It is another LIE! If she would have reached out to me that day and told me that Brayan threatened to murder her, I would NOT have hesitated. Again, she had a plan that started working out after 1200 that day, she was scared, not to be confused with desperate.
Other examples of the detective placing emphasis on Amanda’s mental health and addiction in his report:
- “(Brinlee) knew that she had been depressed and that Espana was abusive to Amanda”
- Housemate: “….but he knows Amanda drinks a lot of beer and gets argumentative”
- Housemate: “Amanda comes home every day with beer” Actual interview the house mate called her a ‘weekend warrior’
- Royal Case HR director: “She said Amanda came to work nearly every day with alcohol on her breath. She had recently been promoted.” HR director denies she ever said that to the detective. If someone comes to work with alcohol on their breath, why would they be in line for a promotion? Who told him she came to work with alcohol on her breath EVERYDAY? The only person interviewed was the HR director.
Did Amanda ever have a fair chance at an investigation that would prove or disprove Brayan’s involvement in her death? Just because a person has depression, anxiety, addiction, or grief, do they not deserve a fair investigation into family and friends’ questions and suspicions? Can’t the risk of murder be equal to the risk of suicide, especially with circumstances surrounding a death? I feel that her past mental health history played a huge role in the suicide ruling by Sherman PD and the medical examiners office. I will continue to be her voice.
Thank you for reading, liking, commenting and sharing Amanda’s story of injustice.